All of which wrapped my noodle brain up into contemplating the Sagittarian archetype, which influences my life so drastically. If you haven’t done any natal chart diving with me, you should know that I am overwhelmingly Sagittarian in my placements. I have a large stellium in the later degrees of Sag that wrap my Rising, Sun, Moon, Mercury, Saturn & Uranus into a little gaggle of strange friends that are all up in each other’s business. It is a double edged sword in many ways, but having the blended energies of all of these placements so wonderfully linked in this sign is something I have come to relish as I’ve gotten older. With me, oftentimes, what you see & hear is what you get–and it can be A LOT! Particularly on this drive, I got thinking about the stereotype that so much of what I refer to as “clickbait astrology” gives you about Sagittarius–that Sag is never serious–always flighty & flakey; that Sag will be the character to ghost you; that Sag is the sign that will buy the plane ticket and simply disappear without warning. Mainstream astrology has this stereotype going for Sagittarius that perpetuates this association of a love of travel linked heavily with unrelenting unreliability. Which I personally resent, to put it bluntly. LOL Hold my coffee while I explain my take on that whole vibe. For me, Sagittarian energy is all about the matter of perspective. I find the essence of Sagittarius to always be attempting to widen the perspective– a near-constant personal challenge to see what else they can include in the big picture they're staring at. And travel, in all of its forms, can be such an effective way to widen the keyhole we’re peering through. And within widening that keyhole, for anyone who might experience a strong perspective change in their existence, you get this very novel feeling of newness. The inner excitement and delight that can come with realizing that everything is not what you thought it was, and that you get a whole new landscape to explore. With any perspective change, I think the ideal situation is that the widened perspective is changing that landscape inside oneself, as well as how you’re viewing & contemplating the outer world–at least that's how I try to process it. And here is where I think that flighty, never-serious stereotype arises from--changing one’s physical locale, and in turn one’s physical perspective, results in this novel experience of “the new;” seeing things from a different light, from a different perspective, from a different angle. But, unless you're willing to travel inside and move around the new interior landscape and contemplate the new interior spaces in a new light, in a new perspective, from a new angle, that feeling of “the new” is going to burn out and fade away rather quickly. Don’t get me wrong, it’s exhilarating to find yourself in a new place, thinking about your life from a totally new perspective. But if one isn’t taking that new perspective to the inner realms and actively working to let that landscape to be changed too, then the search for “the new” will find you metaphorically or actually buying the ticket and disappearing more often than not. Without the ongoing interior digging, I feel like that feeling of newness that one is reaching for is where it’s going to stop. And the moment that feeling of newness fades, you’ve got someone looking for the next novel experience–looking to buy the ticket and check out. So I think the energy, the archetype of Sagittarius, demands a high level of refreshing one's perspective, for sure, but it requires also re-calibrating the perspective internally as you seek these new places and new vantage points. I think this is the antidote to that stereotypical way of thinking in the realm of Sagittarius, because when you can take that new vantage point into the internal landscape, you’re creating that feeling of newness that then becomes a tool you can call upon when needed. The expansive experience of travel can then be transmuted into a resource that you can fall back upon when the world feels stale and needs a refresh. And it isn’t simply physical travel that can conjure this perspective change and populate these new resources–it can be mental travel too; it can be stories and podcasts and books and conversations with people, all of which are just as valid forms of travel as the idea of jetting off to a new location. I think the vital concept is to be conscious of the effort to bring that newness inside one’s self and let it bloom, as opposed to just changing the physical vantage point as soon as you’ve memorized the landmarks. By the end of my drive, I found myself renewed by just seeing the physical truth that in some places, the lilacs were still just buds, and in other places the lilacs were fully and magnificently in bloom. And isn’t that the same as the expansive world I’ve got inside of myself–some areas of my life are fully blooming and fragrant, while others are still just tender buds that need to be cared for before I’ll see what they grow into. Do you have any placements in Sag/what house of your chart does it rule? Do any of those thoughts and ideas resonate with those parts of your psyche or that area of your life? Let me know, I love a good Sag chat!  Uh, helloooooo… Hi! Welcome! In the interest of introductions, I’ll take a moment to bow; to offer my hand; to tip my h a t . . .
During that quiet period, I've spent a lot of time wrestling with how to make my multi-faceted creative existence palatable & marketable, like “successful” businesses "should be." But try as I may, I just cannot make myself fit into these usual roles. I love getting my hands & my mind wrapped up into so many different kinds of making–I’m not easy to put an exclusive label of “jeweler” or “candlemaker” or “sewist” on. And my vending booth is often a strange cavalcade of various disciplines, based on what’s calling to me at the time. I am, an ever-shifting collection of techniques & tools that grab my fascination at that point in time//space. And this ever-present wrestling with how one should have artistic definition doesn't even begin to touch on all of the other creative facets of my life–my relationship with the land and the many plant friends I get to cultivate; my interests in astrology, tarot and herbalism/plant magick; & my love of the stories we tell each other over & over in different forms throughout time, just to touch on a few. The entirety of my existence feels like I am pouring my heart & soul into it continually in search of magick, and the struggle to contain a tiny, single facet of that into one marketable face online simply wasn’t calculating in my alien noodle brain, and as such, I just let it sink into the ether.
And as such, I’d like to start sharing that, with all of its mess and nonsense, with the world at large. I want to continue to dissolve the idea that my creativity is only "shareable" when it is something that would be appealing to be consumed in the capitalist landscape. It is my vow to stop deciding that some parts of my life are worth sharing with enthusiasm while others are not. I want to lean into expressing every delicious detail that I feel called to explore in this strange, wide world, I want to joyously show every last facet of my existence that I get to learn from, that I feel enriched by, that adds more beautiful, twisted & strange blooms to the garden of my life. So here’s the first small step into a wider creative expression for me. A small step into sharing more of the abundance & wealth I am so deeply blessed to be surrounded by on this plane. I’m excited to see the ways in which it might grow & teach me even more.  |
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